"Self Sabotage"

                              So i woke up this morning feeling like i Had failed and it was my own fault. self sabotage,why do i always allow this to happen? I never do it with the intention of doing it, but yet i allow it to happen. I just cant put my finger on it quite yet, a good probability is I'm lazy. That's another thing on my list i would defiantly like to change but then how do u just stop being lazy? this is a question i haven't yet answered correctly. Is it just keep trying ? some day ill get the hang of it? "but i have been doing it that way my whole life and its yet to work"? the only other thing i can think of is just to do it. what i mean is if i think of something that needs to be done instead of just thinking about it just doing it . wouldn't it be awesome if it were just that easy? well that's what worked with quitting cigarettes i just stopped smoking them, yes i thought i wanted one but i just didn't do it. that has been my one true accomplishment ever the only time i didn't allow self sabotage to make its way in. it worked also with finding right exercise (haven't stuck to that like i want either) i went there knowing i was going to do something not yet quite knowing what it was "I was just going to do it" and there it was my gym developed classes with just the title for me i stuck to it for first 2 week then yup you guessed it SELF SABOTAGE omg ....it was cause i didn't have gas to get there, well that is what i allowed myself to accept as a great excuse to allow the sabotage to happen. how will i ever get what i want in anything in life if i don't just do it....hhmmm i have to ponder this thought for a moment..........................................................................Tiffany