managing

   i have not written in a long time . i have actually been a little bit overwhelmed with life. most people are during the holidays, thanksgiving was great we enjoyed our family at our own house ,my kids had the whole weeek off actually we came up with new ideas to make us as a family work more efficiantly together. managing a family is challenging work . my son is having a hard time with anger management so i came up with the idea of journaling as a family so we all got a journal to write our daily excitements , or feelings in or what made us upset or frustrated a way to express emotions in a healthy way. my oldest son somehow along the way has decided that he is intitled to things. He doesnt understand how lucky he is, so im on a mission to clarrify that for him there are so many less fortunate people in this world i need him to realize that and learn to appriciate his things and also learn the value of a $1. im working basically full time now with customer service on the comp i love my job im totally good at making someone happythat calls initially very upset. im still struggling with home organization, but during our family meeting we talked about how we are all going to start making it a point to help eachother  because that would make us all as a family alot happier  and if everyone picks up after themselves then hey mom has more time to do fun stuff with them. i think we may have gotten our point across a little better this time. my son is learning to do the dishes and they are both signed up for the after school homework help program tues and wed and then on thursday its bible studies after school with the sunshine club football at the community center is over with now but basket ball is starting so we are going to let him have a try at that .
                                                  I have also added couponing to my life. i watched 2 episodes on tlc and thought omg if they can do it so can i . went to a couponing seminar at the union tribune and have beeen trying to learn the ropes.christmas  is comming and all my decorations are out i love this season im we have already got our boys what we wanted so the stress is gone so thats fantastic. i want to take the boys to volunteer somewhere maybee at a food bank or something  the focus is the spirit of christmas not just about presents from santa.

" silence "

                   Well it defiantly has been a little while sense I have blogged,that's the beauty of it though I can write what I want. I'm still on the right track, no one is perfect. Silence is something that I'm really not used to I usually speak it if I'm thinking it, which is not always a good thing. When your a kid you are taught that if you don't have anything to say than don't say anything at all, that is the right thing to do usually. You also need to remember that closed mouth's don't get fed either so if some thing is bothering you or weighing on your mind, if you are silent that is not good for anyone, it wont solve any problems, you cannot be positive and move forward without addressing whatever the issue may be big or small. I have learned to open my eyes and am able to view things with a different point of view. I really do feel as if I am on this journey to find myself, live my life in a way I never have before. I want to live it with enthusiasm excitement, pleasure, determination, happiness,  and complete awareness of all possibilities .  What usually causes you to be silent? fear - anxiety - doubt - confusion - lack of confidence - "silence is deadly" . It is such an easy thing to say you will do something, to want to do something, or even have the best intentions to do something. To actually do it is a little bit more difficult otherwise  it would have just been done (fixed).  "silence" is imperative only when you are supposed to be listening". Otherwise you'll never hear anything ,affecting your ability to move forward putting yourself in a rut. I  guess what I'm trying to get at is that learning when TO be silent and when NOT to be silent, also how to make that silence benefit you and not be harmful is one of the most important things you can teach yourself.