wow

it has been such a long time that i forgot how to write a post...lol i havent written all year almost,its defiantly been a real eventful one let me say...there is only one thing that has stayed on track and its also the one thing that didn't look to promising.. that is my goal to have my life together and rock this world by the time I'm 30 i haven't yet decided what info i want to share to the whole world about my journey, i shouldn't be here that's for sure my story is interesting i just don't know whee i should start...whee is the beginning hmmm I'm going to have to think about this one i mean that's what blogs are for right some place to babble what ever it is you want to babble about and if someone wants to read they can and if not they don't have to be bothered right, but there are some people that are cut out of my life and i don't want them to be able to read anything about me... they no longer are allowed to play in my playground, so how do i prevent just anyone from reading.. how honest and how much info do i write?? what am i afraid of? being judged? well that's silly because i have learned recently that god is actually the only one that can judge me,his judgement is the only one that matters..bad choices and decisions are in my past and life is so great right now, that no one could hurt me if they tried I'm so much stronger and determined than ever before

managing

   i have not written in a long time . i have actually been a little bit overwhelmed with life. most people are during the holidays, thanksgiving was great we enjoyed our family at our own house ,my kids had the whole weeek off actually we came up with new ideas to make us as a family work more efficiantly together. managing a family is challenging work . my son is having a hard time with anger management so i came up with the idea of journaling as a family so we all got a journal to write our daily excitements , or feelings in or what made us upset or frustrated a way to express emotions in a healthy way. my oldest son somehow along the way has decided that he is intitled to things. He doesnt understand how lucky he is, so im on a mission to clarrify that for him there are so many less fortunate people in this world i need him to realize that and learn to appriciate his things and also learn the value of a $1. im working basically full time now with customer service on the comp i love my job im totally good at making someone happythat calls initially very upset. im still struggling with home organization, but during our family meeting we talked about how we are all going to start making it a point to help eachother  because that would make us all as a family alot happier  and if everyone picks up after themselves then hey mom has more time to do fun stuff with them. i think we may have gotten our point across a little better this time. my son is learning to do the dishes and they are both signed up for the after school homework help program tues and wed and then on thursday its bible studies after school with the sunshine club football at the community center is over with now but basket ball is starting so we are going to let him have a try at that .
                                                  I have also added couponing to my life. i watched 2 episodes on tlc and thought omg if they can do it so can i . went to a couponing seminar at the union tribune and have beeen trying to learn the ropes.christmas  is comming and all my decorations are out i love this season im we have already got our boys what we wanted so the stress is gone so thats fantastic. i want to take the boys to volunteer somewhere maybee at a food bank or something  the focus is the spirit of christmas not just about presents from santa.

" silence "

                   Well it defiantly has been a little while sense I have blogged,that's the beauty of it though I can write what I want. I'm still on the right track, no one is perfect. Silence is something that I'm really not used to I usually speak it if I'm thinking it, which is not always a good thing. When your a kid you are taught that if you don't have anything to say than don't say anything at all, that is the right thing to do usually. You also need to remember that closed mouth's don't get fed either so if some thing is bothering you or weighing on your mind, if you are silent that is not good for anyone, it wont solve any problems, you cannot be positive and move forward without addressing whatever the issue may be big or small. I have learned to open my eyes and am able to view things with a different point of view. I really do feel as if I am on this journey to find myself, live my life in a way I never have before. I want to live it with enthusiasm excitement, pleasure, determination, happiness,  and complete awareness of all possibilities .  What usually causes you to be silent? fear - anxiety - doubt - confusion - lack of confidence - "silence is deadly" . It is such an easy thing to say you will do something, to want to do something, or even have the best intentions to do something. To actually do it is a little bit more difficult otherwise  it would have just been done (fixed).  "silence" is imperative only when you are supposed to be listening". Otherwise you'll never hear anything ,affecting your ability to move forward putting yourself in a rut. I  guess what I'm trying to get at is that learning when TO be silent and when NOT to be silent, also how to make that silence benefit you and not be harmful is one of the most important things you can teach yourself.

"feeling greatful"

                              feeling greatful. yesterday was my sons 8th birhtday  i felt like super mom i pulled together a surprise that shocked him i had quiet a few of his  friends come over and family too.  he had a great day and still gets to look forward to disneyland too. uno matter how much seems to be on your plate  if u truely believe things will just work themselves out they will..............................tiffany

"when i became a mommy" happy 8 birthday cj i love you"

i became a mom 8 yrs ago today <3

" Change is good "

                 When I think of change just like anyone else i instantly get paralyzed with anxiety. Change is not always bad it actually is good most of the time, its just a very scary thing. chapters of life unfold each day, every day is unlike the other it changes weather you recognize it or not. I started this blog to help me in my journey to change ......i want to change my life and mold myself , into the mother, into the wife, daughter, sister, friend, into the person i want to be. Only I can make that change for myself. So i started with changing my mind and acknowledging what i wanted to start with first. That is how my blogg came about ,using it as a tool to help myself be accountable for my day to day change to not get side tracked or discouraged by life and people and things around me. Staying positive and being grateful for every day that passes. i want to make the most of my life and lead by example. My oldest son has acknowledged my motivation for positive change and guess what? He is doing the same thing. ...................................................Tiffany
                  

Question of the day?  "How do you teach your child something when you dont know how to do it yourself?.......