wow

it has been such a long time that i forgot how to write a post...lol i havent written all year almost,its defiantly been a real eventful one let me say...there is only one thing that has stayed on track and its also the one thing that didn't look to promising.. that is my goal to have my life together and rock this world by the time I'm 30 i haven't yet decided what info i want to share to the whole world about my journey, i shouldn't be here that's for sure my story is interesting i just don't know whee i should start...whee is the beginning hmmm I'm going to have to think about this one i mean that's what blogs are for right some place to babble what ever it is you want to babble about and if someone wants to read they can and if not they don't have to be bothered right, but there are some people that are cut out of my life and i don't want them to be able to read anything about me... they no longer are allowed to play in my playground, so how do i prevent just anyone from reading.. how honest and how much info do i write?? what am i afraid of? being judged? well that's silly because i have learned recently that god is actually the only one that can judge me,his judgement is the only one that matters..bad choices and decisions are in my past and life is so great right now, that no one could hurt me if they tried I'm so much stronger and determined than ever before